Tuesday, April 12, 2016

I'm Back!



NiaJean sits on her bed, opens her laptop and begins typing.

I’ve been away for a while dealing with some personal issues, I’ll tell you about that later but now, I’m back and ready to continue my story.  For those of you who have been reading about me, thank you for hanging with me.  For those of you who have just started reading about me, welcome to my world. 

So now where did I leave off?  The last big event that happened was Jason coming by unexpectedly and telling me he missed me and wanted to try again.  Jason is the man I dated after my divorce from Sebastian and he was my rock at the time but then he decided to cheat so things went in a totally different direction.  He knew how much I went through with Sebastian and he pulls something like that on me.  I can’t lie and say I don’t still have a soft spot in my heart for him but there is no way I’m going down that road of hurt again.

After Jason leaves, Eric appears at my door.  You all know Eric is the bestie and in all honesty I’d like to keep it that way but we never know what life has in store.   Eric confessed his love to me that same day and we ended up in a passionate kiss.  Now that really confused things because feelings that I’d never felt before came to the surface.  In the midst of this passionate kiss there is another knock at my door.  I just knew that knock meant Brian would be standing there but to my surprise it wasn’t him.  So let me go back to that night and catch you up…

Eric embraces NiaJean and passionately kisses her.  She tries to resist but the kiss is amazing and very unexpected.  There is a knock at NiaJean’s door so she immediately stops the kiss and pushes Eric away.  “Oh shit, Brian is supposed to be coming over!  Shit, you have to leave!”  She says as she jumps up and begins pacing out of panic.  Eric looks at her with disappointment and questions her actions, “What, after that kiss you’re asking me to leave?  Did you not feel anything?”  She stops pacing and looks at him, “Yes but I told you I don’t want to go down that road with you Eric.”  A second knock at the door puts her into a greater stage of panic.  “Eric, please can we talk about this later?” She pleads.  Eric looks at her and nods then gets up to leave.  He walks to the door and prepares himself to greet Brian on his way out.  NiaJean quickly rushes to the door and opens it to let Eric out and to greet the person knocking.

NiaJean opens the door and is surprised to see Sebastian standing there looking distraught.  Eric is also surprised as he passes him in the doorway and greets him before he leaves.  “What’s up?”  Sebastian looks at him with surprise as well but remains cordial as he responds back, “Hey, how you doing brotha?”  NiaJean is all of a sudden compelled to explain herself, “Sebastian, Eric just stopped by for a little visit.”  Sebastian looks at her matter-of-factly and says, “Your business, not mine.”  NiaJean is taken back by his response and stands frozen for a moment, not sure how to respond.  Eric looks at NiaJean then at Sebastian and walks away without saying another word.

NiaJean stands at the door looking at Sebastian with confusion.  Sebastian smiles slightly.  “Can I come in?”  NiaJean steps back and lets him in.  She walks to the living room and he follows.  They both sit on the couch in uncomfortable positions so NiaJean quickly speaks,  “This is a surprise, what’s going on Sebastian?”  Sebastian leans back and tries to get comfortable,  “I just have a few things I need to get off my chest and I really needed to talk to you about it.”  “Ok.”  NiaJean’s confusion has now turned to concern as she looks at him curiously.

First of all, I’m sorry for what I’ve put you through all these years.  You didn’t and don’t deserve any of that.  You’re a good mother and I’ve been an asshole.”  NiaJean can’t believe what’s she’s hearing, “Wow, thank you Sebastian but I know you did not come all the way over here this time of night to tell me what a good mother I am.   What’s really going on and where’s Sage?”  She becomes uneasy.  He looks at her reassuredly, “She’s fine, she’s at home with Sabrina.”   “So why are you here Sebastian and why is my daughter with some other woman?”  “It’s only for a little while.”  NiaJean gets ready to go on a rant but before she can speak, Sebastian stops her.  “Sabrina is pregnant.”  NiaJean stops in mid thought,  “She’s pregnant?  Are you ready for that?”  Sebastian looks at NiaJean in the eyes with major concern,  “I don’t know if I want that with her.  I mean, I do care about her but I never thought about anything long term.”  NiaJean takes a deep breath and shakes her head, “Well I guess you better start thinking about it.”  Sebastian leans in closer to NiaJean.  “Look, it just got me thinking about us and where things went wrong.”  NiaJean scoots away from him. “Sebastian, we were young. Those days are in the past.”  “Yeah but there was never a time I doubted having a child with you.  I think the reason why I’m such an asshole with you is because I get so angry with the fact that we didn’t work.”  “Sebastian, you’re just stressing right now.”  “Maybe but this really made me think about you and how I treated you and how I could have tried harder to make us work but I didn’t.  I let you go.”  “Things happened the way they were supposed to so please don’t look back now.”

“I can’t help but realize what I lost.”  He leans in to try and kiss her.  She leans back after she smells alcohol on his breath.  “You have got to go, you’re drunk and you will regret this in the morning.  I’m calling Uber and you can get your car tomorrow when you bring Sage back.”  She jumps up from the couch and grabs her phone.  “I mean what I’m saying to you.”  “ I know you do, tonight but let’s see how you feel when you wake up in the morning next to Sabrina.  You’ll be ok, I promise.”  “I’m not that drunk.”  Sebastian leans back on her couch and dozes off.  Minutes later there is a notification on her phone that Uber has arrived.  NiaJean wakes him up and helps him to the door then walks him to the car.  She tells the driver where to take him as he slides in the car.  She heads back to her house and looks at her phone as she walks to the door.  She notices how late it is and realizes she hasn’t heard from Brian at all.  

She turns off the lights and heads upstairs to go to bed…